Keep smiling

“Why can’t I smile?” This is the question I asked my doctor late last year thinking she would have a medical explanation. I supposed that the reason was just facial muscles or something.

When doing tests on me early in the process, she discovered I was not able to properly raise my eyebrows due to cranial nerves that control my forehead being impaired. I’d try to raise them but they wouldn’t go up, just kind of flickered up and down like a person doing google eyes at someone. It was one of the first indications she had that there was a problem…..a big problem.

Months into my challenging journey, I literally couldn’t smile. I looked like an exhausted four-year-old at Disneyland who’s had enough of pictures and is just smiling with their teeth and not their whole face. I couldn’t smile because…

A smile comes from within. It’s not something intense suffering produces. I couldn’t! Yes, I could show my teeth but my eyes stayed hollow and the sparkle was gone.

I thought maybe, just maybe my smile muscles weren’t working and my doctor needed to know this but really it was my emotional muscles that were broken. Not physical.

On some of my most difficult TBI days, my beautiful daughter would walk through the room and flash me her dazzling smile, lighting up my soul with rays of hope.

She said nothing.

But she smiled!

Her smile cheered me on. It was her way of saying “I love you mom, keep fighting, you’re doing good!”

Those smiles cost nothing but were everything to me.

They reflected God’s love.

I knew then, I was indeed going to be okay. I could feel His smile through her.

In a world of frowns…we as believers in Jesus can smile. It’s a powerful way of witnessing as to where our joy comes from. Our joy comes not from outward circumstances but from knowing His love, hope and peace.

A few months ago, I told the receptionist at my doctor’s office how much I appreciate her sweet smile every time I’m being checked in. It gives me something to look forward to and she has such a sweetness in her face that makes me smile back and fills my day with hopeful gladness.

Every time I see a stranger I give them a smile…and you know what? They always smile back and then the room fills with an atmosphere of light, love and happiness.

I don’t remember when I didn’t feel pain in my head and it’s not easy to keep smiling, but I still force myself to smile, through the pain. I smile so my family feels happier. I smile because God is so good. I smile because I’m grateful and learning to find happiness in the little things. I smile because I’m happy!

Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing today, smile and spread the light, joy and happiness of God to everyone you meet. It just may happen to be the only smile they receive today. It could be they needed that smile more than you can ever possibly know.

My beautiful girl flashing her sweet smile

Author: Viv

I'm a TBI warrior whose hope and strength comes from God.

58 thoughts on “Keep smiling”

  1. I read somewhere that: β€œThe most beautiful Smile is the one that struggles through Tears.”
    Your daughter is so precious. I pray that God will smile on you; that His smile will be imprinted on your face. “Smile on me, Your servant, and teach me Your laws” (Ps 119:135;
    CEV).

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      1. If you have the time, can you read this good book: ‘Unexpected healing’ by Jennifer Rees Larcombe … It is the testimony of a woman sick with an incurable disease who got healed miraculously

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  2. So incredibly true. A smile can lighten the day for someone we don’t know may be having a terrible day. Thank you for such a sweet reminder. And your daughter is precious. They’re the reasons why we fight these ongoing health challenges – I have six reasons I keep pushing. And God who continues to hold me up. πŸ˜ŠπŸ™πŸ½

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    1. Thank you so much Ana!! Truly, they are the reasons we keep fighting these challenges every day. I’m so blessed and I’m thankful God’s blessed you too with half a dozen cuties. I pray daily for you dear friend. He’s holding us! πŸ˜ŠπŸ˜™πŸ™πŸ’ž

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      1. Haha! πŸ˜† You’re right, I do have half a dozen – is it ok that it reminds me of half a dozen β€˜eggs’ though. Thank you so much for your prayers Vivian. He truly is, there is no doubt about that.

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  3. This is so beautiful. My spiritual teacher says – Smile is the signature of God on your face. πŸ™‚ Your daughter is so lovely and her smile precious – for you, for all of us and our beautiful Mother Earth. Thank you for sharing. God bless you – now and always. πŸ™‚

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    1. Oh! I love that! How BEAUTIFUL! Thank you for sharing that with me. Awwwww!! Thanks. She is a gem. I love her beyond words. May God richly bless you too today and always ! Xoxo πŸ€—πŸ˜šπŸ˜„

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  4. What a beautiful, understanding daughter you have. I struggle when my husband is going down and I see him not smiling, (one of the first signs) with the temptation to be too serious and try to fix things quickly so he can smile again, when really all he really needs from me is a smile. Thank you, I know you wrote this a few days ago, but today was the perfect day to read it! Since he’s had a headache for a couple of weeks. Thank you Vivian, so appreciate your’s and your daughter’s wisdom today. L

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    1. Oh Lauren!πŸ€— She’s a trooper for sure having to take care of mommy for so long, dishes, cooking and helping with the younger ones…..I could go on and on but then I start to cry. God has used her in powerful ways and I am so grateful to be her mom.
      I’m sorry your husband suffers from headaches Lauren! That’s so tough. I will add him to my prayer journal today. Thank you for letting me know and please update me on his condition when you can. God bless you my friend! Loads of love!!!😚❀❀

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    1. I’m so glad you enjoyed it.πŸ˜„ God is very good to us each and every day. Thank you for sharing your post and I’m excited to go check it out right now!☺

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    1. Thank you dear Lynn.πŸ€—God has graciously upheld her through this trial of infirmed mommy, but there remains a sadness in her I pray He continues to heal. My injury struck at a transformation period in a girl’s growth, adding extra stress. I greatly appreciate your thoughtful comment and prayers. God bless you and tons of love. β€πŸ™

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  5. Vivian!! Your Daughter is Beautiful. When I started strolling ((It was her Smile caught my attention)) and touched my heart. You as well have a Beautiful Smile. πŸ™‚ This is Beautiful what you have shared. And Thank You!! God Bless You and Your Family. Yes!! God Is Good!! No Mater what!! His Good!! πŸ™‚ \0/\0/

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    1. Thank you Betty! She’s such a dear girl and we are very close too. I’m glad for my big girl who helps me in so many ways. Thank you for reading this today! I praise God it made you smile and He is good, so very good!! Much love my dear one! Xoxo

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  6. Reblogged this on My Journey of Faith and commented:
    LATEST (hot off the press)

    In a state of trauma after trying to burn some dressings yesterday evening after visit by district nurse. All the garden rubbish, trees caught alight and I had to call the fire brigade with excitement from the neighbourhood. Another book, perhaps!
    I was told to never get out of bed, as I’m safest in there!

    from https://headbraininjury.wordpress.com/2018/09/24/a-fitting-tribute-to-a-tumultuous-yet-triumphant-story-encouraging-all-of-us-to-think-twice-about-what-we-are-capable-of-accomplishing-regardless-of-our-personal-barriers-4/#comment-37978

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      1. Thanks, Vivienne. A bit disappointing
        Have to get dressing every 2 days, as got infection due to falling through cracks between hospital and home care system

        Blessings and enjoy your weekend
        “Flick the fire-engine and fire-lighter”craig

        PPS
        enjoy
        β€œLord, make my life A window for Your light To shine through And a mirror toΒ reflect Your love To all I meet.”
        from
        http://www.craigsjourneyoffaith.wordpress.com

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      2. I pray you are better now. Infection is painful!😣That’s so hard but I’m glad you are keeping an upbeat sense of humor in all of this. I hope your weekend is restful and peaceful. Blessings on your recovery!!

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