A time to speak

The following post is my story in a nutshell which a dear friend has strongly encouraged me to share. We all have a story. We all need to share. There is healing in sharing. There is healing in reaching others with our brokenness and pointing up to Jesus who heals and restores. Thank you for reading and blessings on your 2021!❀

I have often heard it said that brain injury comes in all different shapes and sizes. Whether it’s mild, moderate or severe brain injury, they all hold a very similar characteristic; they are all traumatic.

My traumatic brain injury occured as a child of barely thirteen years old. On the summer of 1991, the minivan full of us five church youths rolled down a steep embankment after missing the guard rail by just a few feet. The seventeen year old driver spaced out at the wheel. Tragically, two beautiful girls went up to heaven that day due to massive head injuries. The investigators of the accident guessed that the 1980s van didn’t explode due to a malfunction in the van’s interworkings, but I know it was God who spared us passengers and it was a miracle any of us survived.

My vague recollection of that frightening day remembers passing out when we finally came to a stop but how long I remained unconscious I do not know. Being the last person to be pulled out of the wreckage and the first to be put on an ambulance, I was taken to a small hospital in the middle of nowhere to be looked over. Surprisingly, I could walk, talk and though suffering a few bumps and cuts appeared to be relatively normal. However, the discovery of my brain injury came many years later.

Fast forward to a mother of four in her mid-thirties who was starting to fall apart physically but had no idea why. Sure there were plenty of signs that something serious was going on but where do you start to get to the bottom of so many crazy symptoms?

I went to the Dr. who ran a plethora of tests and said it’s hypothyroidism. Okay, that’s easy enough to deal with, just take a small white pill and there, no biggy right? Nope. While hypothyroidism is a very serious condition in and of itself, for me it was just the tip of the iceberg.

In 2016 I went completely numb from the waist down. My husband dragged me to a chiropractor who after tests and taking imagining discovered the root cause: head and multiple spine injury. She told me my condition was progressing and we began the journey towards healing through cranial and spinal treatments. These gentle care adjustments for accident survivors are designed to restore healing to the central nervous system while drawing out the injury so the body can heal and gain strength, mobility, and function.

Nothing can fully prepare a person for the emotional, physical, and spiritual impact a broken brain and body brings into one’s life. The hard months of physical pain, exhaustion, and frustration are not the only challenges but also how a TBI effects a person socially. Therefore arriving at the discovery of my head trauma in 2016, I had no idea then that the overall response from others would be……indifference. Thinking maybe it was because in my case my injury went undiscovered for so long, that people just didn’t or couldn’t understand that yes, there are cases in which trauma shows up years later. Yet, upon further reading and researching I’ve learned that sadly the majority of TBI survivors live socially in solitude. This is because friends vanish, relatives are distant, and acquaintances judge which is heartbreaking.

Taking all my emotional and physical pain and sadness, I decided to begin blogging my thoughts in order to speak out in the hope that it would help people understand and offer support. This did not work either because then I couldn’t get anyone to read or follow my blog except for my best friend and parents who always supported me anyway. After a few posts my mom, being my number one fan, told me that reading about my faith was an encouragement to her and gave her hope. It was at that point my mom’s words spoke to my heart whispering gently that my writing endeavour wasn’t about me anymore. It was about bringing hope and encouragement to others and that was when my blogging purpose changed.

Writing words of encouragement in a blog to others who battle brain injury, MS, Chiari, and other chronic illnesses or injuries has been a amazing way to help others which in turn has brought the same to me. While old friends vanished like soap bubbles, I found a few amazing new friends through the blog who have been overwhelmingly supportive of me and a huge blessing to my life.

I don’t know why God allowed me to survive the accident that tragic day when my two friends died, yet I do know God is good and wise and has a plan for my life. I thank Him every day for a chance to grow up, marry, and have my four beautiful kids who bring so much joy. While there is no known cure for a TBI, I have heard that there can be improvements with proper therapies and treatments which gives this brain injured mama a whole lot of hope.

Written December 27, 2020 by vivjoywriter

Author: Viv

I'm a TBI warrior whose hope and strength comes from God.

30 thoughts on “A time to speak”

  1. God bless you, Vivian. Your testimony has given me great encouragement in my suffering as well, and it has been a blessing sharing fellowship with you! Praying for you and your family. God bless you all!

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    1. That really speaks joy to my heart Ryan! I’m also blessed we’ve been able to share, pray, and grow in this journey in the Lord. Thank you brother (we got through 2020) and I pray every day for you!πŸ™πŸ˜Š

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  2. Oh, wow. I can’t imagine the physical, emotional trauma you have experienced. You mentioned how your blog has encouraged some others, naming some physical ailments. But your blog is also a great encouragement to those of us with spiritual injuries also. I, too am broken. But, like you, Jesus is fixing me. God bless you as you continue doing His work in your daily life and here online!

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    1. This is wonderful Collin! I’m deeply touched that you shared this with me and so so blessed that I can convey encouragement to you too! I do think most of us are broken, whether physically, spiritually, or emotionally. Thank you brother for telling me this. It means a lot!!

      God bless you too!πŸ™πŸ˜ƒ

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  3. Thank you for putting it out there. Yes, it’s a blessing to me; it’s also knowledge. I need to know and remember that people carry around invisible traumas and injuries. We really don’t know what another person is going through, even if we know a person well. I think this is why God so often reminds us to forgive. We must carry out God’s grace unto others.
    God bless you in your continuing spiritual walk with Him.

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    1. Kathy, I just learned you too struggle with chronic illness from seeing a comment you wrote on another blog. I had no idea you suffer in this way! Thank you for supporting me and praying for me these years. I am praying for you as well. Forgiveness has been so freeing for me. I know now people can’t understand and it’s not fair for me to expect it. Even if I’ve talked, or write until I’m blue in the face, I just let go knowing it’s okay because God understands. That’s all that matters.πŸ€—πŸ’š

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      1. Oh yes, and He’s teaching me to be more sensitive to others too. πŸ’š Here’s a big hug!πŸ€— Bless you Kathy and much loveπŸ’šπŸ€—πŸ’šπŸ€—

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  4. Thank you for putting it all out there, Viv. Telling a story like yours is no cake walk!
    Your resilience and courage are an inspiration. The isolation of being misunderstood by β€˜friends’ who disappear like 🧼 soap bubbles 🧼 is an agony I have experienced as well.
    Please keep sharing and know your words are important!

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    1. Ugh, isn’t that the worst David? I’m so sorry you’ve gone through this too.πŸ˜” I am comforted that our Savior too was abandoned by friends…..especially when He needed them the most. His word has greatly helped me, because He is a friend who never leaves and He understands that grief the most. Thank you David for your support and for sharing, it means a lot! πŸ€—


  5. Thank you for sharing your story. I think I listened to it through a recording before or maybe I read it before…it’s so heartwarming to me the way you lean into your faith!! Praise God for His protection over you and that your story points right to Him!!

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  6. Thank you for sharing your story Vivian. Your words of hope, faith and encouragement matter. May the Lord continue to flow through your words to reach others. Your words and the grace with which you carry through all this is a blessing and an encouragement.
    God bless you dear Vivian.

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    1. Thank you Richard. I’m glad God has used this blog to give hope to others. I’m also thankful for your support over the past 2 years……it means the world to me!β˜ΊπŸ™


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