Don’t give up

Falling yet again

Will this ever end?

Brave heart tries so hard

Three steps back again

You’ve got this God

I’m yours

I need your surge of strength

Please help my weak faith grow

Though progress is snail slow

Persistence will prevail

Though seems like total fail

Step by step each day

Help me Lord I pray

It’s not about the tall

Pinnacles of growth

It’s about the subtle small

Rising after fall

And God will help us all

Written by Vivian Joy

Thank you

Today was a milestone day in the blogging world for me. Instead of saying my blog has reached 100 followers, may I instead say that it has reached over 100 supporters, encouragers, and friends.

That’s how I feel about you lovely people.

Going through this process of opening up my heart using words so that others can be encouraged has heaped encouragement upon my soul immensely. I’ve gained so many friends here who love on me, support me, encourage me, and pray for me without hesitation.

It’s been so utterly amazing, these deep connections gained through blogging, and I am honored and humbled beyond words….

Thank you and God bless each and every one of you.

Much love,


Most recent of my beautiful daughter and me. She helps to edit my blog as my TBI has affected certain writing skills of mine such as…. spelling. ;P

P.S. When my daughter edited the above comment, she informed me that I had spelled the word ‘spelling’ with three Ls.

Case and point, everyone.

His Vessels

Currents of tears running free, deepest hurts spill. He has emptied, broken me, now my soul can fill.

Blessings come gently, washing away pain. Hints of grace beyond clouds. Filling soul again.

Broken tea cups, cracked, chipped, useless to world’s eye. He sees beauty perfect, whole, for vessels He chose to die.

He sees me priceless, white, pure. He views the heart now clean. Never unwanted or unloved. Ardent love from Him.

Broken tea cups, cracked, chipped, still hold substance in. Lift to lips giving forth, benedictions of His chosen.

Written by Vivian Joy

Keep smiling

“Why can’t I smile?” This is the question I asked my doctor late last year thinking she would have a medical explanation. I supposed that the reason was just facial muscles or something.

When doing tests on me early in the process, she discovered I was not able to properly raise my eyebrows due to cranial nerves that control my forehead being impaired. I’d try to raise them but they wouldn’t go up, just kind of flickered up and down like a person doing google eyes at someone. It was one of the first indications she had that there was a problem…..a big problem.

Months into my challenging journey, I literally couldn’t smile. I looked like an exhausted four-year-old at Disneyland who’s had enough of pictures and is just smiling with their teeth and not their whole face. I couldn’t smile because…

A smile comes from within. It’s not something intense suffering produces. I couldn’t! Yes, I could show my teeth but my eyes stayed hollow and the sparkle was gone.

I thought maybe, just maybe my smile muscles weren’t working and my doctor needed to know this but really it was my emotional muscles that were broken. Not physical.

On some of my most difficult TBI days, my beautiful daughter would walk through the room and flash me her dazzling smile, lighting up my soul with rays of hope.

She said nothing.

But she smiled!

Her smile cheered me on. It was her way of saying “I love you mom, keep fighting, you’re doing good!”

Those smiles cost nothing but were everything to me.

They reflected God’s love.

I knew then, I was indeed going to be okay. I could feel His smile through her.

In a world of frowns…we as believers in Jesus can smile. It’s a powerful way of witnessing as to where our joy comes from. Our joy comes not from outward circumstances but from knowing His love, hope and peace.

A few months ago, I told the receptionist at my doctor’s office how much I appreciate her sweet smile every time I’m being checked in. It gives me something to look forward to and she has such a sweetness in her face that makes me smile back and fills my day with hopeful gladness.

Every time I see a stranger I give them a smile…and you know what? They always smile back and then the room fills with an atmosphere of light, love and happiness.

I don’t remember when I didn’t feel pain in my head and it’s not easy to keep smiling, but I still force myself to smile, through the pain. I smile so my family feels happier. I smile because God is so good. I smile because I’m grateful and learning to find happiness in the little things. I smile because I’m happy!

Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing today, smile and spread the light, joy and happiness of God to everyone you meet. It just may happen to be the only smile they receive today. It could be they needed that smile more than you can ever possibly know.

My beautiful girl flashing her sweet smile

Hope in front of me

“God is the only one who can make the valley of trouble a door of HOPE.” – CATHERINE MARSHALL

What exactly is hope? Here’s a biblical definition:


To trust in, wait for, look for, or desire something or someone; or to expect something beneficial in the future.

My hope is in the Lord. He alone can bring about healing for me. To trust in His sovereign timing means that I hope in Him, looking upon Him with expectant eyes of faith, as I patiently bear my current circumstances ordered by Him and ultimately fixed through Him.

Hope is contagious. When someone looses hope, it will have a domino effect on others. I’ve seen it. Yet, if a person stays hopeful it brushes off on others and in turn gives birth to more and more HOPE.

Over a year and a half ago, my doctor told me something that will stay with me forever. After finding an “issue” with my compressed head she said, “Now, I don’t want you to lose HOPE.”

It was simple.

And those words I will never forget because I’m sure if I had indeed lost hope, I would not have made it.

Hope kept me fighting.

Hope kept me alive.

God held me, through hope!!

Hope is God’s gift to us. It drives away our fears and pushes us on despite grim happenings that may bring despair. It’s stronger than fear because fear has a paralyzing effect but not hope, it drives us. It drives us to keep on keeping on. It says, “God’s got this!” “Don’t give up!” “Tomorrow will be better!”

Our hope is in God. No matter how bad things may seem, God’s word is full of promises to us that we can store up in our minds and cling to, protecting us from fears, worries and anxieties.

God doesn’t want us to lose hope.

We can pray for hope to drive away despair by asking Jesus to give us a beacon of His hope through His word.

Jesus is our hope.

Faith in Him produces hope. Our hope is in our eternal home with Him after this life. We must believe this. There has to be faith and hope that believes God’s word is true, trusting in His faithfulness and mercy to carry our souls past this life into the next. Our joy and peace comes from believing these promises through the Holy Spirit’s gift of hope.

So, as long as we have lungs breathing oxygen in and out of our bodies, and as long as we are alive, there is hope.

There’s hope in front of us…

Romans 15:13

13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

Great song of hope by Danny


I’ve been running through rain
That I thought would never end
Trying to make it on faith
In a struggle against the wind
I’ve seen the dark and the broken places
But I know in my soul
No matter how bad it gets
I’ll be alright
There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light, I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I might be down but I’m not dead
There’s better days still up ahead
Even after all I’ve seen
There’s hope in front of me
There’s a place at the end of the storm
You finally find
Where the hurt and the tears and the pain
All fall behind
You open up your eyes and up ahead
There’s a big sun shining
Right then and there you realize
You’ll be alright
There’s hope in front of me
There’s a light, I still see it
There’s a hand still holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I might be down but I’m not dead
There’s better days still up ahead
Even after all I’ve seen
There’s hope in front of me
There’s a hope still burning
I can feel it rising through the night
And my world’s still turning
I can feel your love here by my side
You’re my hope
You’re the light, I still see it
Your hands are holding me
Even when I don’t believe it
I’ve got to believe
I still have hope
You are my hope
Songwriters: Brett James / Danny Gokey / Bernie Herms
Hope in Front of Me lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc, Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management