Keeping up

TBI has a way of making one feel like you’re driving an old back-firing moped while everyone else is whizzing by in their 2018 Harley Davidson with the shiny chrome banana pipes.

Do you ever feel like keeping up with life is just too much? I do. The feeling of being so extremely overwhelmed by keeping up; homeschooling four kids, being mom, tending the home, trying to heal, and just living life makes me feel like it’s an impossible obstacle. I’m trying so hard, but it’s like running on a hamster wheel, exerting energy but not feeling like I’m getting anywhere.

When I was young, my dad, brother and I would take long walks to places in Philadelphia because we didn’t have a car and sometimes walking was the preferred method to buses or subways. I could never keep up because my dad’s long Marine Corps strides were not easy for my little legs and my brother being 5 years older had longer legs too. They were always having to say “keep up.” I tried, believe me, I tried, but the long journeys we took were so frustrating to my 7, 8, 9 year old legs. I had to walk/ run the whole time because it was the only way to keep up.

I’m glad of it! Being the baby of the family could been very detrimental in coddling or babying me, but my parents never did. They never babied me and let me off easy, just because I was their youngest and a girl. They knew how tough life is and didn’t sugar coat my childhood with pillows of fluff, and candy coated ideals.

When I realised my job as a child of keeping up was twice as hard, I could go easy on myself, not chiding or berating myself because I couldn’t keep but, instead, I could feel like I accomplished something as my efforts to keep up payed off from trying twice as hard.

Today, I’m dealing with this. It feels impossible to keep up. The house stays a wreck, school work presses in, and most days I barely have a chance to brush my hair. But when I see other homeschool moms going here and there teaching Latin, Greek, music to their kids and I can barely do the math and language arts, it hurts. But I realise it’s ok. I have a TBI. Not an excuse but a huge obstacle to overcome while trying to keep up. My kids are all excellent readers, great at math, and learning. Maybe not able to do all the fun stuff and extras like soccer and scout troops as before, but they are four great kids and loved. It’s ok! I need to speak this often. It’s okay, because with TBI things are twice as hard for me but in reality, I can keep up……. just in my own way with God’s help.

Yes, my moped still runs, even if it’s slow and not very pretty but that doesn’t matter because I’m still getting there.

Viv

Blogger recognition award

blogger recognition award Thank you Missy from One Stone Away and Joel from In the Desert With Jesus for nominating me! I feel greatly honored and humbled beyond words. Your kindness and encouragement, support and prayers mean the world to me.

Here is a brief recap as to why I started blogging.

In April, I decided to blog about having a traumatic brain injury to raise awareness and to give hope to others who suffer by proclaiming gentle truths from God’s heart. I would never even have dreamed of blogging before TBI but now realize this was God’s plan for me all along. My blog is to encourage, inspire, and uplift. Mostly, my message to people like me is; YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Two pieces of advice to new bloggers are:

1) Write from within and don’t be afraid to share your heart.

2) Quality, not quantity. Focus on each post like it’s your only post. I personally find that posting once or twice a week at the most works best for me and if you get writer’s block, you can always try a Japanese haiku.😉

The Rules:

  1. Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  2. Write a post to show your award.
  3. Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  4. Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
  5. Select 15 or more fellow bloggers for this award.
  6. Let each nominee know you’ve nominated them and leave a link to your post.

I feel that God wants me to use this opportunity to recognize and encourage other bloggers who also suffer from having a traumatic brain injury. These truly heroic individuals are huge inspirations to me personally. Some paracycle, sing and play the guitar; some are seasoned authors with numerous book publishings. I’m amazed every time I read about their endeavours and gain new insights as to what it means to persevere, and beat the odds. Several will be nominated below alongside my other favorite bloggers who I’m honored and privileged to call my friends.
God richly bless and keep you all!

Loads of love!

Viv

Nominees:

A brain injury life

Inspirational Leader

Jumbled brain

Living with a head injury

My Daily Walk With TBI

Unstoppable Maria

Blue and Green Together

Bible Blogger

Commissioned by Him

Eclectic Contrarian

God Help Me I

Inside Cup

I Refuse To Give Up

Jesus Christ Still in Control

Miraculous Smile

Mom Life With Chiari

RabBits

Real Christian Women

Rejoicing in Hope

Simply My Swank

There is no need to rush. If you choose to participate that is fantastic, but please don’t feel like you have to take part. This is my way of highlighting my favorite blogs and also in hopes that they too will feel as supported and encouraged by this nomination as I have.