Survival Mode

For years now, my family and I have been in this mode. Barely keeping our heads up above water……..just getting by.

Are you here, or have you been here?

Sometimes chronic illness or injury feels like grasping for a buoy and hanging on, barely keeping your head up above water. Then a huge wave of unexpected symptoms wash over your head pulling you under, leaving you fearful and disoriented, trying to figure out which way is up, and struggling to come up for air. Each new challenge, whether physical or emotional, is like an extra weight, pulling you downward so then you struggle even harder to stay afloat treading the deep waters that never seem to dissipate.

Yet, God is our buoy. He keeps us up and afloat daily. His grace never ends and His strength is beyond us. He is the ultimate source for enduring hardships, and fights alongside of us in the deepest, darkest, oceans of trials. His grace is sufficient and His mercy does endure forever.

2 Corinthians 12:9 King James Version

9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

It may not look pretty……this survival mode. But, we ARE surviving. We still get up every morning to see the sun rise yet once again.

I still see the faces of my darling children every day and here the soft whispers of, “I love you, Mommy” at the breakfast table.

Though for long or short durations life can be tough at times we can still glorify God and enjoy Him forever; because His grace abounds when we are weak, when things aren’t pretty, when bodies fail and life appears to go under. He’s always here, always surrounding us with His loving arms, and he loves us more than our finite minds can ever fully comprehend.

Hold onto Him in faith and never fear because when we are too weak to hold on, He holds us still and always is holding us. God will never ever let go because He promises to keep us, preserve us, and protect us until He calls His beloved safely home.

Much love,

Viv πŸ’–

Author: Viv

I'm a spoonie Blogger grieving the loss of my husband who went home 2/13/22.

69 thoughts on “Survival Mode”

  1. I understand Vivian, to the very best that I am able. It is a tough place to be in, and I am amazed at how your faith continues to grow and shine through all of your trials. You are a force to be reckoned with! πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you my friend! 🌻 By God’s grace alone. May and June were tough, tough months for me emotionally. Trials with very close people in my life really shook me up. I came very close to leaving WP permanently, but God said, “keep on!” I’m thankful for another day to write encouraging words for others and I’m thankful for you and your support.

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      1. Yes, to the core! Me too dear Wendi and I am excited to see what God holds for me in the future. Awwww, that’s so touching for you to say. Wow! Much love!! πŸ€—πŸ˜„πŸŒ»

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    1. I deeply appreciate your comment Nitin. To answer your question, that’s up to God. If I am a blessing to others then my efforts aren’t in vain but only God can use my pain and my writing for others.

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      1. God bless you too 😊. I don’t know if you are familiar with this song by Hillsong called β€˜ Another in the fire’
        Check it out if you don’t , the words of the song speak about Jesus being with us through every trying time.

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      2. *hugs* I will look that up too! So awesome how two of you have given me uplifting songs within the last fifteen or so minutes! Amazing!! πŸ€—πŸŽΆπŸŽΌ

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      3. Oh wow girl! I just listened to it and loved it!! Such a great message of how Jesus is with us, standing next to us in the seas, and fires of life. Thank you for sharing it with me!! πŸ€—πŸ’•

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  2. Vivian, we all have our strengths, and you have so many. Thank you for sharing a few of them. May God continue to light the path ahead of you. I know He will.

    Your testament and scripture remind me a worship song . . . “Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)”

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    1. Bless you brother! You’re very welcome! He sure will and continues to be my light. Amen.

      Oh, I’ll have to look that up. Thanks for sharing that song with me! πŸ˜„πŸ˜ŠπŸŽΌπŸŽΆ

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    2. Hi Richard, I just listened to the song you gave me and am familiar with it. It’s such a great message and I thank you for reminding me. It did my heart good to listen just now. God bless you.

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  3. All that I am and hope to become, I give to my Lord.
    Philippians 4.12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
    God bless you, Vivian! ❀🌼

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    1. Very beautifully said Kathy! That verse is such an encouragement to me! I’m finding myself turning to Philippians 4 a lot for comfort and guidance here lately. Thank you for pointing me towards that specific verse. πŸ˜πŸ€—πŸ˜š

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    1. Thank you so much brother! It’s from your experience that you have spoken from, and I do appreciate you blessing me with your kind encouragement. It’s WONDERFUL to have support from the body of Christ!!πŸ˜„God bless you!😊🌻

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  4. Viv…it is not easy to live in survival mode one bit! Many times we have to say β€œBut God” and crawl along. I enjoy this paragraph you wrote that I must re-share here, β€œYet, God is our buoy. He keeps us up and afloat daily. His grace never ends and His strength is beyond us. He is the ultimate source for enduring hardships, and fights alongside of us in the deepest, darkest, oceans of trials. His grace is sufficient and His mercy does endure forever.” Can you imagine having God as our β€œbuoy” – that puts a smile on our face! A huge one! It reminds me of one day me telling God He has to be my crutch because I was unable to walk along….May the Lord continue to equip and strength you my love. May He continue to make His face shine upon You and give You His Shalom ❀️❀️❀️❀️

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    1. Awwwww sweet friend! Thank you so much for loving words and I’m thankful you shared that paragraph. Yes, He has kept me float daily and the faithful prayers of many. Awwww!! Peace be unto you my beautiful girl and much love always from your Viv. πŸ€—

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      1. Awwww, just found this in spam. Bad spam, my Deandra’s comments are treasures not spam. Boooooo spam!!

        Much love back sweetness. πŸ€—πŸ˜šπŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•

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      2. Giggles! Indeed…bad bad bad spam. How dare you interfere with my love notes to my sweet Viv β€οΈβ€οΈβ€οΈπŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°πŸ₯°

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  5. Here’s another song recommendation, Vivian 😊 : β€˜The Lord is My Salvation’ by Keith & Kristyn Getty

    Love reading your reflections as you walk through the trials of this life by the strength and grace of our Lord! πŸ’œ HE is our SALVATION!!

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    1. Thanks Emma! I’m going to write down these song recommendations before I forget. πŸ˜„ Thank you so much for the Getty song, I do love their music. Much love dear Emma!πŸ€—

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      1. I just listened dear Emma and it touched my heart so much! I loved it, especially the refrain and was so blessed to hear it just now!! Thank you so much dear one!!πŸ’•πŸ˜„πŸ˜š

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      2. Oh so glad to hear it!! πŸ˜ƒ
        Yes, the refrain is wonderful. I’ve had it stuck in my head (on and off) for quite a few days now. Perhaps this is just another opportunity for us to marvel at the providence of God. πŸ’œ

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      3. My data for the month rolls over tomorrow, so I’m super excited to have the opportunity to splurge on that song and listen to it several more times! Awwww, yes, we can both have it settle in our heads with so much joy! Amen! πŸ’•

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  6. Thanks Vivian! I like your words that God is our Ultimate Source. I try to remember that each day. Your perseverance is amazing. God’s grace is indeed sufficient to carry us through. God bless you sis! ❀️❀️

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    1. Good morning Dawn, and thank you! He truly is our only hope and gives us grace daily to carry on. I don’t know where I’d be without Him. God bless you dear sister and much much love!! πŸ€—

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  7. Amen. I understand what you mean Vivian. He’s so faithful though isn’t He? Everytime I need a life line He throws one out. Have you heard the song by Avril Lavigne called “Head above Water?” Your post brought this song to mind.

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